Day 5 of the 'maybe possibly could be fired, we'll tell you later' vacation.

i am feeling a little run down on my journey to health, wellness, and well being. There's alot of stupid stuff going on in my head that I am either filing as 'deal with later because i don't want to right now' or 'deal with later because I can't until I know more, or have more, or am more' and its making me crazy. I need to workout, wash and vacume my car, scrub my floor mats, and I haven't even started on what else I wanted to get done today because of timing. It was all my fault, if i hadn't wasted the morning away, i would have been done with the phone calls as planned, and not have this awful feeling inside me.

I am mostly feeling this way because i didn't take my fucking energy shot when i got home or got up or whatever and i've done other things twice even though my lungs are making a funny sound when I do certain exercises. fuck.